My Life Song

I haven't written in awhile. A few months actually. I've been busy in the span between the last post and now filling my time with big decisions, life celebrations, and staying busy in the sometimes mundane routine of life. I've celebrated big birthdays and big accomplishments with my family, had new adventures with friends, and taken chances just for the sake of taking them. Chances that will all make sense one day. To say that things have been a bit crazy recently would be an understatement but somehow, in the midst of everything, I feel content with where I am and where I am heading.

I heard a song recently that I couldn't relate to more and wanted to share it with you. It's a song that reflects my inner-most desire to live a life that values the small things and a life that realizes the importance of all the moments that truly matter. Music has such a way of meeting you where you are and turning the inner-weaving's of your spirit into beautiful melodies. For now, I'm calling it my life song because it fits where I am at this exact moment. Next month or next year another song may fit a bit better but that is part of the beauty of music: there is always another sweet melody waiting to capture you wherever you are.  The song is by Lori Mckenna and it's titled " The Most".

The Most by: Lori McKenna

My life is a grocery store line

A "We'll be just fine"

Don't know how we survive but we do

My life is an early spring snow

The last thread of hope

That I just keep hanging on to

My life is pieces of paper that I'll get back to later

I'll write you a story of how I ended up here

Why the little things make us and how long it takes us

To figure out what matters the most...

My life is a two dollar beer

Friday nights here

With friends that I've known since high school

My life is an order to go

A rainy car ride back home

And someone you love to lay next to

My life is pieces of paper that I'll get back to later

I'll write you a story, how I ended up here

Why the little things make us and how long it takes us 

To figure out what matters the most...

Someday well I'll look back and wonder

Someday comes around a little quicker than they told you

Asking "Did I do what I was supposed to"

In my life

Don't know why the little things make us and sometimes it takes us

To damn long to figure out what matters the most....

My life is green grass through the snow

A sweet reckless hope

And baby I know...what matters the most

I can relate to this song on so many levels in the way that it not only reflects the life I live now but also the life that I am constantly running towards. I can't tell you how many rainy car rides I've had back home to see my family. And I probably complained the whole way about the traffic and the weather and all the driver's who can't move out of the left lane. But I'm thankful that I live close enough to drive home. Thankful that I have a wonderful family waiting for me when I get there.  So often those things get overlooked or I merely spend so much time complaining about them that I forget to realize that they are the very things that are molding me and shaping me and making me into the person I am to become.

Then there is the part about writing a story of how you ended up where you are. I could do that in the most literal sense. It's one of my most favorite things actually, to look back at my life and see what decisions I made and what experiences I had that led me to the exact point I am at. And when I'm in the middle of the tough stuff, the hard decisions or the why-does-this-hurt-so-bad-i-never-want-to-be-here-again stuff, I try to remember that someday I'll look back and realize why I went through that and what I learned by doing so.

Mostly, though, what I really like about this song are the lines "Someday well I'll look back and wonder/ Someday it comes around a little quicker than they told you/ asking 'did I do what I was supposed to'/ In my life".Right now, I'm at this point of looking back and wondering if I'm doing what I was meant to do. And if I'm not, will I take the chance and make the leap to actually do what I feel I AM supposed to? I hope so because I don't want to look back and wonder, I want to live so fully that I don't even have to ask. I want to pursue my passions, make a difference, and take chances on things that feel like doing and being exactly what I'm meant to.

For me, this song is a reminder that the little things and little moments make us who we are. It makes me keenly aware of the person that I want to be, the person that I'm in the process of becoming, and the person that takes a risk just to make sure they're on the path to doing what they were supposed to with their life. And I hope I'm a person who never stops clinging to a sweet hope, no matter how reckless it seems, or lets go of those little things that truly matter the most.

I hope you'll enjoy this song as much as I do. Listen to it by clicking here.

And since I'm back on the blog, next up will be a photo recap of the last few months for you to enjoy :-)